Thanks to the Scots, many people have heard this tune in the past few days, I’m sure. It’s hard to believe yet another year has gone by. For that matter, not just another year, really a whole decade has just passed us all. Only ten short years ago, there was a great anxious uproar about Y2K and yet, here we are still intact (for the most part) and ready to take whatever this new decade of the ‘new millennium’ has to offer us.
For me, that is preparing my way for the Novitiate–a formative period. Here, I will have 2 years to quiet myself, eliminate the distractions, and really focus on God and what He has to say to me. God-willing, after these 2 years of listening, I will be ready to say that I am continuing my journey to the priesthood of Jesus Christ with Norbertine flavor 🙂
As I discovered on Christmas Eve 2009, some of my family, mostly my cousin, had a hard time understanding exactly what I was doing. So, I explained to her the details of my decision and the excitement I had as the day draws nearer. However, when I got to the part about living in community and having to share all of our resources (especially this vow of poverty business), my cousin was rather upset. It took me a while to figure out why she was so passionate in her arguments about me feeling ‘OK’ with giving up my ‘freedoms’ to have my own bank account, a home of my own, and the time to do with it as I please. However, the more I tried to explain, and the more my family would try and help her understand, the more I realized that my calling was way more liberating then I had realized before.
The fact that my cousin was so concerned–and rightfully so, don’t get me wrong–about me not being able to ‘survive’ in the world–at least as we, as society have accepted–frightened her. Looking back on it, I feel as though I should be frightened, or at least trying to push myself to reconsider, or try to save up money in case this thing doesn’t work out for me. BUT! That is not the case,on the contrary, I have never felt more prepared for anything in my life.
I am ready to give up my own freedoms and my own ‘securities’ in this world to help bring myself and others closer to the real Securities of the Kingdom of Heaven.